So, it’s been a few weeks since I’ve written. I’ve been in a weird place and not quite sure how to articulate it. I’ve been feeling fairly unsuccessful and was actually moved classrooms. This week I found myself surrounded by some 3rd-5th graders in a classroom set up for special skill targeting. As I started my week, I was tentative. I felt nervous about screwing up and doing a poor job. Yet, just a week later, I am absolutely loving it. I’m seeing teaching and classrooms in a way I never did before. I feel revitalized! I didn’t know school could be such a calm and fun place, and I’m back to a place in my head where I feel like this is for me and changing my career was a good decision. It’s amazing what new surroundings can do for you.

In other news, it’s time to apply for full time jobs. Many of my colleagues in my program cohort have already been hired and interviewing for positions. Last week I felt crushed that I wasn’t one of these people interviewing. Today, I can safely say that it just wasn’t my time. I look at how hectic the last week was, and I know that interviewing during all of that would have been a disaster. If it continues, my outlook may not be so sunny. For now though I am content with the idea that it’s my job fate.